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Do not let your adornment be merely outward-arranging the hair, wearing gold, or putting on fine apparel, rather let it be the hidden person of the heart, with the incorruptible beauty of a gentle and quiet spirit, which is very precious in the sight of God. 1 Peter 3:3-4

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Sunday, February 27, 2005

Possessed by Depresssion: Post-Graduation Blues>

I'm not sad. I'm not happy either. Lukewarm if I may say. I guess this is just the stage when you just want to have peace of mind, walk along the seashore, feel the wind embrace your whole being, witness the sunset and sunrise, appreciate the flower that slowly blossoms, smell the fresh air... Wow, that's just exactly what I want to do. I want to relax, reassess myself and figure out what's gonna happen to me in the next years of my life.

I think every fresh grad feels this way. The moment you receive your diploma, you are just so excited to step out of your shell and conquer the world! After a while, you pause and think. Where am I?

Where actually am I?

I am a woman of many dreams. Uncountable dreams! But now, I got nothing... I am nowhere... I can't seem to see a bright future ahead... :(

-Lost Soul-

# posted by Viviene | 12:10 AM

3 Comments:

yes viviene wrote that... in the midst of her loneliness...

still lonely now? yes...

but can survive though....

*tnx sa reply.. *

By Viviene, at 3:11 AM
wow vivienne! i feel exactly the same way!!! I was (still am!) in terrible depression! It's like this, when we were young, still studying, our goal was to finish either elementary, hi skul, or college. realistic goals. then when we graduated all we knew was that we had to find a job. then we get one. then we start questioning why am i working? what is this for? what is my goal now. then you realize that when you have no goal, you have no direction in life! you feel like you do not have a career path. and if you have no career path, you feel you are stupid or worthless or something. that caused my depression. i felt like "whaat?? i have to work all my goddamn life!"

then another factor hit me (see, as i am like a kid i am so naive and idealistic), the real worl is so full of bullshit, not anything i thought it was. full of corruption and unfairness. it's even moreso depressing. why did the elders teach us that the world is good, it's beautiful, when they will only crush these when we grow up and learn otherwise.

By iceuck, at 9:06 PM
Actually, when the elders said that life was beautiful they weren't lying. Life is indeed beutiful. Kaya lang, our idea of beauty is perfect, walang flaw. And that does not exist. walang perfect eh... Beauty can be imperfect. And life is imperfect. Therefore, life can be beautiful.

I'm still searching in darkness but there is light at the end of the tunnel. I can see it, its there... You might not see it now, but you know I can see a bright future ahead of you. I believe in you so much (many people do)..

If in case you feel this "depression" paralyze you... text me, samahan kita till we both see the light at the end of the tunnel. :)

salamat sa reply chong......... i miss you!

By Viviene, at 6:27 AM